Here’s a real mom moment
It’s only Wednesday and I’ve lost my shit every day this week. I know I’m not proud of it but I’m human. Being a parent is hard. Like really hard. Especially when you’re raising little versions of yourself.
You have expectations of not only your child but of yourself and how you are going to parent too.
I EXPECT that I have to parent a certain way or my child will end up a spoiled little brat.
I EXPECT that if I don’t do what I think everyone wants of me that I will be judged for the way I parent.
I EXPECT that when I tell my three year old to do something that he is supposed to just jump up and do it.
Just to name a few.
That sad part is, that these EXPECTATIONS of myself and my kids are so far off.
When I see other moms laughing and loving every little thing their kid does, even if it’s what I think is naughty, it makes me a little envious inside because I want to be that carefree, my kids do no wrong, loving mom. I want to let them run wild a scream and laugh but I also want them to be respectful of their surroundings and other people.
It’s so hard for me to push these feelings to the side but then I ask myself..
“Am I being too hard on my kids?”
“Are they too young to really understand what I’m asking of them?”
“Am I not letting them be a kid and expecting too much of them?”
I find it to be just so hard for me to look past things sometimes. I feel like if I look past these bad habits they have, that later on down the road I’m going to be paying for it. I want my boys to listen when something is asked of them. I don’t want to fight with them to pick up their toys 100 times a day. And I just want them to eat their dinner that they were so hungry for.
I don’t know if I can really be the mom that I want to be.
Every mom is going to parent differently, that’s the beautiful thing about raising your own kids. I just have to remind myself that I need to practice patience. That my babies are still learning, testing boundaries, and becoming their own person. I am going to work on taking a deep breath and assess the situation rather then reacting right away.